Today was a revelation
I stayed in the quiet lane
Of sleep
And stillness
No words - just sounds
Plates from the neighbor
Dogs barking
The engines of cars passing
I am not here. I am in Venice.
I can still feel my heart,
beating to the sound of your breathing
A crooked pillow on a lumpy bed
with all the words we've never said
My ears on your chest
With your arms around me
I am trapped in that memory
I don’t want to be anywhere else
Without you
So I stay
Long after you’ve gone, I’ll stay
In this .gif in my head
Where this fragmented image restarts
Right before you stir me awake
Right before you sit up and reach for your clothes
Right before I start feeling that familiar,
pounding panic in my chest
pounding panic in my chest
Right before I whisper, please stay.
... and you don’t.